Anthony Rankin Wilson

Already Broken CD

1. Bound To The Bottom Line

I
Didn’t see him till he was flyin’ by,
Came from nowhere, might’a been the sky.
His limo stretched all over town.
I saw Lucifer drivin’ him around.
Sayin’, “You could be a billionaire.”
Blinked my eyes, no one was there.

II
Rode his father’s pride to an MBA.
Found a trophy girl for his display.
Heard their deals all over town,
Riding the Dow up and down.
Time is money, the bull and the bear,
Blinked my eyes, no one was there.

CHORUS
My ladders’s up against the wrong wall.
I’ve been climbing it up to the sky.
You know my baby, she wants it all,
And all I want to do is fall, all I want to do is fall.

III
Had a baby boy, one was enough.
She couldn’t find the joy,
But he had a lotta stuff.
Heard his cry all over town.
“Pick me up, never let me down,
Gotta have that new teddy bear.”
Blinked my eyes, no one was there.

BRIDGE
Imagination once bound to the heart. Oh, how my dreams felt like mine.
Tell me what tore them apart.
Now my imagination’s bound to the bottom line.

2. Already Broken

I
See your golden hair turn to silver,
The generous hands of age revealing your beauty to me.
Already broken, already gone,
Turns these Autumn days with you
Into a song.

CHORUS
Never loved nobody like you. Never loved nobody like you.
Never loved nobody right through.
Never loved nobody like you, like you, like you, like you.

II
Follow La Luna rising over silhouettes of pine.
Moonlight pouring down upon your breasts.
My lover of the lake,
As my woman, my wife,
I do thee take.

III
The crow circles in an October sky,
Above the solitude and sacrament of our vows.
“This is a marriage,” calls the bird,
“Of woman and man,
If true to the Third….if true…if true…if true to the third.”

3. Winter Comes Calling

I
Winter comes calling, kicks in the door.
Autumn shudders, and falls to the floor.
“You’re not welcome here,”
She says to the Cold.
“I have fruit on my branches
And leaves of gold.”

II
The Old Man listens, squints his eyes,
Says, “This is my season, should come as no surprise.
I show no mercy
When it’s my time.
Surrender your fruit,
Your gold is mine.”

CHORUS
Every Spring, shorter than the last.
My Summer green, fading so fast.
Still the shame
When I hear him say,
“Gold turns to dust
If not given…if not given…away.”

III
“Rivers of Regret,” she says, “I feel your chill,
You run to the past, you always will.
So Northwind blow,
Blow me bare.
I’ve squandered my season,
And the Old Man, he doesn’t care.”

4. Motherless Child

Sometimes I feel like a motherless child
A long way from home.

Sometimes I feel like a starless night sky,
A long way from home.

Sometimes I feel like a salmon swimming dry,
A long way from home.

Sometimes I feel like a forest unseen,
A long way from home.

Sometimes I feel like the wild is gone,
A long way from home.

We know this Earth will carry us along,
We know this Earth will carry us along,
We know our Mother will carry us along.
If we listen to her song.

Outro
If we listen
To her song

5. When The Beast Wakes

I
When the beast wakes, baby,
All you gotta do is be my fantasy.
When you’re my fantasy,
All I wanna do is have you on your knees.
When I have you on your knees,
All you gotta do is beg me baby, please, one more time.

CHORUS
Ain’t nothin’ like these, these days of lust.
Ain’t found nothin’ like this to trust,
Ain’t found nothin’ to trust.

II
When the slave wakes, baby,
All you gotta do is make the beast behave.
When you make me behave,
All I wanna do is feed you what you crave.
When I feed you what you crave,
All you gotta do is save me from the truth of you.

BRIDGE
Sometimes I feel so unreal.
Sometimes I wanna write a letter,
Ask for something better,
Something that doesn’t leave me, doesn’t leave me so hungry.

OUTRO
Ain’t got nothing like this lust, Ain’t got nothing I can trust.

6. Rock Me (in the Cradle...)

I
How I love to fall in love,
Dying for a place in heaven above.
I took the Truth into both my hands,
Tied woman to her nature, made my own plans.
The midnight sun is feasting on the land of snow.
Cattle claim the jungle so this belly can grow.
Once there was a robin, and she could sing.
My boy don’t hear her no more, in the silent Spring.

CHORUS
Rock me in the cradle of my dreams unspoken.
Save me from falling through this hole in my heart.
Wake me from this spell that must be broken.
Our shadows fell across the sky.
Our promise disappeared from our eyes,
And I can’t feel what it was to lose you.

II
My brother don’t remember the days that he forgot.
Now he lives in Wonderworld, wishing that he was not.
My sister’s bloody thighs can’t take it no more.
Now she’s refusing to deliver the future to my door.
I held a holy tree that touched the sky,
Took me in her branches, sang a bye bye lullabye.
How I love to take what I can.
Armageddon rings the bell, let Jesus answer, he’s your man.

BRIDGE
Blame it on Zeus, blame it on me.
Blame it on the weight of history.
Blame it on Eve. Blame it on you.
Blame it on the One breaking in two.

7. My Daughter's Room

I
They come, they go, and when they’re gone,
I sit in the silence of my daughter’s room.
A Tuesday night, a Friday afternoon,
The clock strikes one on Sunday too soon.
Was it something I did, or something they didn’t say?
Our lives somewhere in between what was and what might have been.

II
This room it waits at the top of the stairs,
Holding its breath while no one’s there.
I turn their calendars, wash their clothes,
And water their plants so they will grow.
All of these ways, it’s what I can do
To hold them in my arms, until the meantimes are through.

III
Two beds unmade, socks and slippers
Lie hollow in the shadows of my daughter’s room.
Through their window moon looks in,
Waits for their hair to grace nighttime’s pillow again.
Angel of God, my guardian dear,
To whom God’s love commits me here…

To be a witness from cradle to tomb,
In the silence of their empty room;
…To ask forgiveness when I would not hear,
In the silence, the sound of their fear;
…To be a father while still a child…

Angel of God, my guardian dear,
To whom God’s love commits me here.

8. Lie Upon The Earth

May you lie upon the earth,
And may you die into your birth.
See the dead reaching up from the ground,
To unborn hands reaching down.

May the children take your hand,
Lead you where you had not planned.
See the dead reaching up from the ground
To unborn hands reaching down.

May you find in the father’s eyes,
Tears of grief, undisguised.
“It’s all for sale,” the Joker cries,
“Set a price then kiss her goodbye.”

May you remember there is no other,
The sea your blood, the soil your lover.
“It’s all for sale,” the Joker cries,
“Set a price then kiss her goodbye.”

May your breath purify the air,
Your last word a prayer.
See the dead reaching up from the ground,
To unborn hands reaching down.
“It’s all for sale,” the Joker cries,
“Set a price, then kiss her goodbye.”
See the dead reaching up from the ground,
To unborn hands reaching down,
Reaching down, reaching down, reaching down.

9. Crow

I
Before the Beginning,
Crow wouldn’t leave shadow alone.
Shadow woke, ate crow alive,
And sacred law found a home.
Master of illusion,
Hears no call but her own.

CHORUS
Feathers whisper, “The flesh from spirit made.
Put your ear to the wind, you will hear it laid
Upon the ground of bone and passion
By the breath of love,
While crow flies above.”

II
Crow laughs at right and wrong,
Black omen on the wing.
Her silhouette cuts the sky,
From the blue bleeds the evening.
Out of the night Shape Shifter sings,
“Born of women are all things.”

BRIDGE
The past is my lesson.
The present my creation.
The future my inspiration.
Crow, lead me
From temptation.